Two Nights Graze Free

That's what I'm calling it anyway. Since I did have snacks, BUT they were planned snacks and therefore authorized. I'm still working on the *why* I have such a dysfunctional relationship with food, and while I've had a lot of insight lately, this is still ever elusive. It can be any number of things but since it's been going on as far back as I can remember I'm sure it's some kind of Freudian parental thing. I've not always done it, but rather do so in spurts. Or I suppose I should say the times I've not done it have been in spurts, because, if I'm honest about it I've done it more than I haven't. But that's another post.

For this week, I've NOT done it two nights in a row. Which feels absolutely fantastic. I embraced my hunger yesterday as well thinking to myself that hunger is a good thing as it's telling me I'm eating properly. It isn't an emergency and I'll get to eat when I get home.

My recluse lifestyle continues. Which suits me perfectly at this time in my life. I finally feel like I'm getting it together.

As August approaches I have some things to look forward to. My mom is coming to visit, my dad will also be here. I'll probably make a trip to Orlando for the weekend to see my sister and my friend from DC is coming down. All in all a lot to look forward to.

Today's docket isn't especially interesting considering that I kept thinking yesterday was Wednesday. Ugh, this just means that this week is one week longer than I realized. Whatever, it's no big deal other than the fact that I'm at work one more day. Before vaca. Or rather, staycation. I'll imagine we'll do some shopping but I also plan on getting in some fun "tourist" stuff for the kids.

I've got some thought provoking topics that I want to write some posts about but I'm not sure that the name of my blog is correct if I'm going to start doing that, you know?

How Do You Find the Time?

'm not sure how the people I know that do daily blogs find the time to do the daily blog. I have pictures of all the food I've eaten since Sunday. And you know, I find that taking a picture really helps me to stay accountable to eat what I've said I'm going to eat. Well, except for the baked chips I had last night.  They were in lieu of the dinner I prepared because I had it all made but just didn't feel like eating it, so an hour and a half later, I was hungry. And I had about two portions of those chips.  

I'm running late for work now, but will find time to upload pics later. Dinner on Sunday Mother's Day was a macadamia encrusted tilapia and was really good.

I also had a smidge of mashed potatoes and a smidge of broccoli casserole along with a roll.

I don't have access to this site at work so I won't be able to write again until I get home from work. I am going to ride the bike for an hour after work today and do some weights, upper body and abs.  

Therapy session yesterday as well.  I'm feeling better about myself and things, but I'm not sure if that's because of therapy, this blog, or the exercise. Or maybe a little of both. Either way I suppose the important thing is that I am feeling better. Now if I can just have some consistency with that.  I've felt better and had exercise as a routine for 6 months before and easily lost it. So apparently that whole 21 days to a habit thing doesn't really work so well for me. Or maybe, I stopped exercising for 21 days and changed my habit.

In other unrelated eating news, exciting changes at work keep me really busy throughout the day. And challenged.  AND, I'm planning a summer vacation with the boyfriend.  That is something else that is fabulous and scary at the same time.  Those of you who know my relationship whoas can understand.

Ok, I've really got to go finish getting ready for work and wake the kids.  I'm always running late, why is that??