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About me, always hard to put into words a description about myself. We always see ourselves differently than others do. My likes: I love sports, all kinds. Especially NASCAR and baseball. Yea, strange I know, a bleeding heart liberal who likes NASCAR and country music. But here I am. I also am profoundly proud of the relationship that I have with my children and my family. They made me who I am today. Pink is my favorite color. I like all kinds of music, except perhaps rap. I am a rabid NPR listener and love my doggie. I work full time, am a semi-vegetarian, a voracious reader and a wanna be writer. Doing all that I do in the beautiful South Florida sunshine.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Computer Problems

My hard drive crashed on Tuesday and I lost all of my pictures. I have them a lot of them on my Facebook but, the resolution isn't close to the originals.  I've had it repaired but I think that they didn't install the proper RAM as I had 1G and I think they only put in 512. Thus my running really slow on yahoo and other sites. Ugh. I go back tomorrow so hopefully it'll be fixed.

I've not been eating to any plan other than eating when I'm hungry and stopping when I'm not. I just have all I can handle trying to work on my emotional state and not allow myself to fall into a state of depression.  Not that I am or that I am close to that. But I've been struggling a little lately.

I found out that the ex-DBF had dated someone else while we were dating. I asked and he honestly answered.  I don't know why I let this bother me, and honestly, I knew that this was the case, but still.  And the funny thing, he wants his cake and to eat it too. It's up to me whether I allow it or not.  I won't. I can't. That would make me crazy, the knowing. But as someone said to me, there is a reason people are in the past, there is a reason why they came into your life. Leave the "why" in the past with them because by allowing it to be in your present then you are allowing them control over your life. And I definitely don't want to do that.

I'm at a place right now, where my daughter needs me 24/7 and I'll get my adult time in when I can and not at her expense. She's 6 for one year only and they grow so fast. I don't want to miss a second, definitely not because of someone who isn't worthy of it. And he isn't. At all.

1 comment:

Christie @ Quit Your Diet said...

{{{HUGS}}}

Hang in there, my friend.